E15: I can’t feel my person with me
A young letter-writer feel disconnected from her best friend because she isn't receiving signs and symbols from her friend after her death.
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Dear Grief Guide,
So, my best friend is gone. She lost her battle with cancer after a year and a half of being in and out of the hospital. Shit hurts, and I miss her all the time. It's like this void, this emptiness that feels never-ending.
When I lost my grandmother as a kid, I got these signs—white feathers, dandelions, songs playing on the radio—like little nods from the universe. But now, dealing with my friend's death at 25, it's just silence. No feathers, no flowers, no songs playing out of nowhere. I can't feel her with me.
I tried seeing a medium, hoping for a clearer connection. It helped a bit. During the session, I felt her presence and I had a moment where her death didn't hurt as much. But on a daily basis, the yearning for some sort of consistent sign is still there. I just want to feel her without needing someone else to make it happen. Do you know what I mean?
How on earth do I get through this loss when those signs that I thought would appear automatically aren’t showing up? I just want to know she’s with me—like those little reminders that she's still around.
Hoping you can help,
Sitting in Silence
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